So it's been a while since i have had anything of interest to put on paper. Today is no different to be honest, just felt like writing. Christmas is fast approaching, and I am not able to even try to forget that with 3 kids whom are keeping very keen eyes on the calender. I was able to get all of our shopping done, aside from stocking stuffers and friends, by the 3rd of December. I say that I am going to beat the rush every year and this is the first year that I have been successful. I will not be part of the chaos and anger that surrounds Christmas when people wait until the last minute to do the shopping. I have been a part of that, or rather a victim of it, and I refuse to do it again. 

It makes me sad to see that Christmas has become nothing more than a super commercialized holiday that creates anger and frustration. I will be the first to admit that I am not a religious girl. Nor do we teach our children the real "reason" behind Christmas. We do however stress to them that it isnt all about gifts, its about being with those that we love and enjoying time as a family. We do exchange gifts and yes I do tend to go overboard, but our girls understand at least on some level that the things they have are not a necessity, but a luxury afforded to them because their parents work hard. What happened to the Christmases of my youth? The magic and wonder of it all? Is it because I no longer see Christmas through the eyes of a child? That its just a whole bunch of work for me now? Scott and I still exchange gifts and the adults still get gifts but its just not the same. For a long time i said that i didnt even like christmas, and to some extent i still feel that way. I have this year been trying to see things from my youngest daughter's POV. Shes 6 and still sees the magic that is christmas. the twinkling lights and television specials. She loves it all. I try very hard not to get all hum bug-y around her. I do enjoy watching her and seeing the innocence that she still has. It will be a sad day in the Roberts house when she has grown past the innocence stage. Ill miss it very much. 

Here's hoping that everyone has a very MERRY CHRISTMAS or whatever holiday that you call yours, and may we all try to find a spark of that magic that we knew as a child.