You like me, you really like me

I have recently started taking the advice of some of my friends who have been telling me that I need to take my writing and put it out there for others to enjoy too. And let me just say, its so satisfying to see that my things are actually being read! *does happy dance in chair* Its and amazing feeling being noticed and liked. Liked is the best part. I have always loved to write. My brothers used to make fun of me for always writing something. Im not going to say that I am amazing or that I deserve to be published but Im beginning to think that there might be something there.

I started using a site for amateur writers to post their short stories and such and its my goal to pub one chapter per week. I have a feeling that it might be less of a short story and more of a novelette in the end. But that's ok. I am in the process of looking into PubIt for the Nook. one would think that books that are self published would be boring or badly written, and i thought the same thing, but....Im reading a book right now by a self published author and its AMAZING!!! The book is called The Blood That Bonds by Christopher Buecheler. Its paranormal romance (my fav genre) with a bit of grit thrown in there. Im officially in love with the characters and cant wait to buy the 2nd book in the series. Genius marketing too. The first book is a freebie, thats why i took a shot on it. But the second book is $2.99....smart....get em hooked then take their money lol. I could compare these books to drugs and the author the dealer. Give them a free taste then they will come back willing to pay anything for more.

Anyway, I think i might be interested in pubbing my own stuff....but not sure at this point. For those of you who would read it, ill keep you posted.

The Dating Years

My heart is breaking. It is so hard for me to see my daughter go through the dating years. A teenage girl's heart is something so fragile that it breaks with the lightest of touches. I wish that she never had to experience these same heartbreaks that women have been experiencing for years. I wish i could take the hurt away, when she feels rejected. 
Yesterday she was on top of the world because the boy she liked, liked her back,and today she "hates" him because he wants his old gf back. 
How do I as her mom just let this happen to her? I want to find that little punk and tell him that he has to stop playing with girls' hearts. Doesn't he know how fragile the self esteem and psyche of a teenage girl is? what is wrong with him? 
She is a good girl and she doesn't deserve to be hurt this way.
But alas, it is the way of life. We have all gone through it. It is not the first for her nor will it be the last. I want to hug her close to me and shield her from the ugliness of the world. But that wont do any good. it will protect her yes, but will it prepare her for life? no. Mom will not always be there to protect her from stupid boys or mean bosses or just average people.
It will get better, i know. but i still have 2 other daughters to go through before it does. Ugh.

A trip on the Ego train anyone?

So yesterday, I had my ego inflated by my English professor. This, to the average, might not seem like a big deal.  I suppose that Im not the average person. I wrote a paper for the class, granted I received help in form of critiques and some added sensory impressions from a very close friend who is also very articulate, so I don't take full credit for the paper. Anyhow I got the highest score possible on it and I was totally stoked. Writing is something that I have always done, or so it seems. I have loved it for a loooong time. I seem to be sensing a trend with the creative outlets that I am getting "into" lately. But that's another post. i asked my professor for a critique based on his being an expert and all, I wanted to see where I needed to become stronger and where I was good. He basically told me that it was indeed a very good paper and that I was a talented writer, OK not his exact words, but that's why i heard lol. He gave me some recommendations as far as authors to read so that I might study technique and some ideas for the future. I would like to break into freelance writing, not technical stuff  so much, but short stories, novelettes and the like. I would like to be able to write at length about something that I am interested in, as opposed to a topic chosen for me by someone like an editor. It honestly is a dream of mine to have something published in a known publication, if for no other reason than to see my name in print and know that somewhere, someone will be reading it and enjoy it....whatever IT is. The conversation went on for a bit and he gave me a bit of advice " Don't do it. Take the time to write simply because you love it. Ive been a pro writer for years and recently realized how much I have gotten away from writing just for the love of writing. " also " Don't be in a hurry, take the time to write something each day, even if it is just a page." I mentioned that I have received compliments on my writing and that it is something that I should pursue. The response that I received was the key to my all day elation....." I agree, you should." Was all that was needed for my soul to soar and my ego to inflate almost too big to fit in my body. Everyone likes to know that they matter, or have it recognized that there is talent there. So in light of Professor Kleinman's comments, and taking all things into consideration, I am going to do just as he told me to. I am going to write a bit each day on here....possible in another blog to which I will post the address of if needed. I'm going to begin a story and keep adding to it each day, until I see it fit to end it. It may never be read, or recognized as anything more than the babblings of a random "wanna be published" woman, but I will know that my words are out there, and that is all I can do. Get my words out of my brain. Look out world, Im opening up my brain, and one never knows what might come pouring out!